So it's nearly 4:30 am and I can't sleep. I went to bed around 10: 30 but woke up from one of the dogs jumping on my bladder around 3 am. Been on the couch web surfing ever since. I've sent emails to
see2photography clients, letting them know about our holiday specials, updated the web site, checked work email, yada yada. I'm not quite sure what's wrong but it does indeed suck as I found out last night that my absentee ballot had been rejected for some form error, and I must go to Fairfax Voter registration at 8 am in the morning---3.5 hours from now---to vote. I'll be in San Diego with my two best friends for the actual election, so that's a bright spot. But in the meantime, I am finding myself stressed with one of those "I'm anxious about everything but nothing in particular" feelings.
I'm worried about the economy and how much worse it's going to get. I'm worried about being EXHAUSTED tomorrow all day. I signed up for a Strategic Planning and PR course at the UVA extension campus and it runs 7 to 930. My first class is tomorrow night. I hope I don't fall asleep! I'm worried the holidays are just around the corner and I'm not the least bit ready. I'm worried that my exercise plan is never actually going to get off the ground and my running days are a thing of the past. Anyway, enough with my worrying. I was on myspace as part of my insomnia and came across a blog I wrote a while ago. As i'm now a facebook girl, and my body still ain't letting me rest, I thought i'd excerpt it here (with a few revisions):
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My life goals. Simple really.Originally Dated January 15, 2008
A 6 Month ReviewI just emailed my sister a list of my life goals, and thought i would share them with all of you as well. Plus I am waiting for a teleconference and lord knows I have nothing better to do. Actually I have a lot of things to do, but better things? This is arguable. Here goes:
* Pay off all my debts by the time I turn 32.
This is possible. I've still got a year and half, anyway. * Have four little girls named annie, mollie, yvie, kate. Alternates: sophie, autumn, Rachael, anya, this list goes on and myspace does not allow for the length it would take to name them all. i do know that one will indeed by a profesional acrobatist and one will be backup singer for Steve Winwood, although he may be in a wheelchair by the time she's of age.
Oh, this is definitely happening. Although I've added some names. I really like Garrett for a girl. And Spencer for a girl too. Then again, i DESPISE Spencer Pratt, so maybe not.*Quit job and become a famous industrial collage photographer who wears funky eyeglasses and a size 2. okay reality, size 8, but It'll look smaller because I'm taller. Oh who am I kidding? It'll look smaller because it's like 10 sizes smaller than I am now!
At the moment, I am feeling like I'll be this size forever. And I'm wearing contacts these days. But it's still a goal. I was going to exercise in the AM but as that's now, I don't see that happening. *Run marathons every few years pushing a baby carriage and running with my husky Vladimir (ick will ride in the carriage).
Well I do have a place in the NYC Marathon. In 2009. Motivating myself to do something so that when another year passes, I still want to, umm. We'll see. And it's hurley now. No huskies because James has banned any further dog additions. *Go on vacation twice a year, one time to someplace tropic, the other someplace exotic like India. Call it "going on holiday" to sound cooler.
I'll start this goal in 2015, when I finish paying off the last trip. *Have a beach house, a mountain house and rent a tiny 2 bedroom in dc somewhere to afford other places.
This is a 2020 goal. Although the way the economy is going, it may be more like 2040. *Own a scooter (and not leave it at the West Falls Church metro which is a rampant area of crime)
Possible 31st bday to self?* Own a respectable collection of cowl necks sweaters.
This is the best goal I have on here. And most likely to be reached. * Kiss on my sis sis at least once a week. Let her cook for me at least twice a week.
The kisses are happening, the cooking is not. But she does cook for me like once a month. That's decent progress, I would say.* Always have a full container of hummus in my refridgerator.
I had one last night, before I ate it all...does that count? Damn hummus. You are so tasty!!*Subscribe to Life & Style magazine so as to obtain issues before available on newsstands.
Yah for Mom's bday present! Check!* And most importantly, have acrylic nails.
When I can afford regular manicures, I'll consider this. Maybe. I go back and forth between beautiful and tacky. Mostly because I have oompa loompa hands and fake nails look HUGE on my fingers. I'm a simple girl, with simple dreams, don't you think?
(as I thought about this more , more goals came to mind, so here is an addendum, if you will):
* I would like to weigh what my driver's license says I weigh at least before it expires.
See above comments on weight.* I want to be known as a great listener, not as "what up interrupt."
I'm trying!* After studying spanish for like a gazillion years and still not getting it, I have lowered my expectations on foreign languages. I would like to have a friend who is fluent in spanish.
I've gotten to aquaintance, but not yet to friend. Work in progress* I would like to find the exercise video that Molly and I did for PE class one year and laugh at what dorks we were. Techi's drug store too. And Pelo Facil. Buy a videocamera and remind myself I have not become all that less dorkier than I was then.
I do own a video camera! Check 2! I do not know where the hey hey those videos are. * I will live all by myself for 6 months before ever getting married. At age 29, i have never lived on my own and I think it's about time.
Not with the rent in this state!* I want to embrace 30 (YIKES 4 months from today!!) with grace and style and not cry to much over the sun damage i'm spotting near my eyes.
Came and went. I don't know if the style and grace portion did, but I'm 30 and proud. And wearing more sun screen. * I will live in the present at least once a week.
Ummmm, maybe?* Say more prayers. Not just before dinner when I'm over at the fams and Dad expects me to or when I'm taking off in a plane and get all nervous about dying, but at random times. for the random blessings i have.
I'm working on this one. * Take Katy Bennett on an all expenses paid trip and not have her pay for anything.
Katy Bennett keeps upping the ante by flying out to visit me for wedding dress shopping, surprising me with Emily on engagement weekends. GIVE ME A CHANCE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. This will probably also be a 2040 endeavor. More to come with future teleconferences....
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Off to bed, I hope!